Days Without a Cigarette: 1.78125
Days Without Nicotine: 0
Dollars Saved: -$31.79
There seems to be some disagreement on which part is the hardest. Going into this, it seemed like everybody was basically telling me the same thing: The first twenty-four hours are the hardest. But as I approached my actual quit date, some of my friends who’d quit started being a bit more cautious and telling me the first 48 hours were really the hardest and that sometimes the second day is harder than the first.
Well now, as I approach the end of day two, many of those same people have switched to telling me that the first 72 hours are the hardest. And something tells me that tomorrow they’re gonna change that to the first 96.
And you know what? I’m good with that. It’s a lie I’m enjoying. I mean, I know that at some point it has to get easier than this, because if it didn’t nobody would have ever quit. It would be like perpetual motion machines or something. No human being would endure a lifetime of feeling like I feel right now every few minutes forever. So sure, at some point it’s gonna get easier. But I’m pretty sure that point isn’t tomorrow. But even if the nadir isn’t 24 hours, I wanted to think it was. And if it isn’t 48 hours, I still wanted to think it was. And in a sense, it was. It just isn’t anymore. It’s not exactly a lie even though it isn’t true. Because the hardest 24 hours are the next 24 hours, and that’s really all I need to think about right now.